I think you have forget me. I am still alive because “I am Ashwathama” haha !!
That’s funny, I know because Corona had fucked entire world and proofed that you bloody homo sapience are nothing but so vulnerable species who are in wrong notions of power. A small virus had made us helpless to follow the new normal. Everything has been changed from socio-eco prospects to individual scenarios, policy planning to implementations, travel to clothing and food of course. Meanwhile 2020 will be remembered throughout next century for what had started in the end of 2019. I was so energetic with 2020 but Covid had brought series of event in everyone’s life. Anyway let us forget the past because it is nothing but the waste of time which can not bring any valuable avenues to improve until it adds some value to progress. So I am going to remember some of events in my life which has given me so much of direction and valuable lesson to deal with day to day life and progress in life. I will remember the investigations assigned during the Covid time and learning from it. I will also remember some of incidents which has proofed me right about my anticipations about the human minds. I will remember 03 August as our first meeting baby and our relationship throughout Covid with love and emotions. Rest I pay tribute to all those who had lost there life due to Covid pandemic. I salute all the medical staff of the world, All the security agencies in the world and Police force in the world who delicately worked during the Covid period and become true “Corona Worriers” for people.
Seeing off with un-expected series of events and marking my words here with 2020. Good bye !!
21 check list (2021)
We entered into 2021 with existing scenario of last year but let us define some kind of resolution within the ambit of strength and limited freedom.
UPSC – I always wanted to try for UPSC but I never prepared for it. I had got opportunities to work with different fields including the power corridor and after having enough experience I had realized that we are no different than others. While they can why we can’t ? It is matter of opportunities and hard work with consistency. Many events had happened in life which had led me to think that we are still living in era of masters and slaves. I look into the quote every day pasted in the wall saying, “What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail ?” would it be in your 21 check list ?
Professionalism – Many of my reader are pure professionals. Being a Govt. servant it is a false narration that they don’t work. Today’s young generation are much more capable of their 90’s bosses. Two things matter in life 1. Hard work 2. Knowledge and It has no substitute. Your confidence is directly proportional to your knowledge. You may find it hard but with time you will become master of your craft with your sincere effort. Make sure whether you are student, vendor, farmer, businessman or servant, maintain the decorum of professionalism and give your best. Write a comment if it is going to be priority in your 21 check list.
Savings :- Oh ! that’s very important in life. After many years of service I don’t have savings and due to mismanagement in life I found it very difficult now to fulfill expectation of family. I had realized that certain % of your income must be saved for some reason or kind of investment which can help you to live comfortable life. If you are extravagant like me, it should be your top priority too. Write a comment if it is going to be priority in your 21 check list.
D-MAT – This is a new thing to learn but I found it very interesting. I will start investing in stock and shares this year. For this you need to open D-MAT trading account in any registered firm. After opening DMAT you can easily start trading in shares and stock in BSE and NSE. So it is going to be very exciting. Here is some link if you are going to try this.https://zerodha.com/open-account/https://www.angelbroking.com/https://www.motilaloswal.com Write a comment if it is going to be priority in your 21 check list.
Network :- Be kind, amicable and helpful with your friends and colleagues. Good people can help you to improve your skills and quality of life with bliss and happiness. Mark these words “Network is Networth” Write a comment if it is going to be priority in your 21 check list.
Fitness:- Covid had brought a wave of fitness enthusiasm. It was observed that sale of bicycles were out of stock during the lockdown. I live in Lutyens and I had seen hundreds of people with group in the morning riding bicycles. I had too purchase bicycle during lockdown and recently joined Fitness India . I had promised myself that this year I need to get into the best shape of my life. Write a comment if it is going to be priority in your 21 check list.
Term Insurance :- Many of my colleague and friends had term insurance. Covid had made us to think that life is uncertain and you must have calculate some risk so that people connected to do not suffer financially. Taking more responsibilities every working person take some kind of medical cover, insurance or term insurance. Write a comment if it is going to be priority in your 21 check list.
CAR:- In a corporate life if you don’t know how to drive that’s pretty bad. It’s been many years of job and I still don’t know how to drive. I will learn and this will be my priority. Write a comment if it is going to be priority in your 21 check list.
Writing: Keep writing something it is a good quality. If you can contribute something to this society start sharing your thoughts on your success, on your failure, on your dreams or on your journey. This is biggest contribution you can pay back because it can inspire a generation to be like you, to not commit mistakes like you or to follow your path or ideas. I have shared enough and I will keep doing that till the last day of my life. Writing is love. Write a comment if it is going to be priority in your 21 check list.
Reading:- Good books are your kind of best friends. It gives you strength, emotions, inspiration and peace of mind. So I have decided to give more time to good stuff which will help me in life with knowledge and inspiration. Write a comment if it is going to be priority in your 21 check list.
Travel:- If time will allow this year then definitely I would love to visit some good places with camera and memories. Covid had block us in cage and now this industries will grow drastically and people are crazy to travel. Few days back we made a plan to visit Tungnath and Chopta in Uttarakhand but couldn’t get any place to stay. So this year I want to cover good travel stories. Write a comment if it is going to be priority in your 21 check list.
YouTube:- I have writing blogs since two years and making YouTube videos since one year. Last year I decided to cover some motivational stories but due to Covid couldn’t pursue it further. This year I want to make sure that I will make some good YouTube cover. I am happy to see my growth in YouTube with 4 Million views and 5.29 K subscriber. One of my video had hit 3.6 M views. Please subscribe my channel here http://www.youtube.com/TheLostMonk Write a comment if it is going to be priority in your 21 check list.
Patience :- Mark these words “Patience is a virtue” I am very energetic, always remains tip toe which leads sometimes to unwanted circumstances. So I want to improve this flaws by remaining more calm and peaceful. You can also try this. Write a comment if it is going to be priority in your 21 check list.
Company:- I will try to form a company this year and try to invest my ideas on it. This is my company project and I am going to break the ice for it. You can also try if you have any kind of idea pertaining to it. Write a comment if it is going to be priority in your 21 check list.
Do not judge or make any kind of opinion on the basis of these information. Because opinions block your mind to evaluate broader prospect of life. These are some kind of check list which I have shared with all of you. I am a simple human being too with many shortcoming & flaws but this is kind of resolution which I desire for this 2021. Let us be more enthusiastic what life has to offer us. “We are still alive and be grateful to that”
A young man who had tough time in life. Life was harsh on him and every single day brought more darkness to his life. You can not deny your circumstances and you can not run away from life. Theory of nature said that it evolve only those who are fittest for the survival. He promised to himself that life may be bit harsh on him but he would bring out the best from the every single dark night. Life may push him down but he won’t give up and would stand up every single time with double force. Every failure in life was just a stepping stone to make that sky scrapper of your dream. When you have good time in life, you don’t know your actual strength but failure teaches you more and enhance your capabilities to another dimensions.
Why always the best
you should be a learner through out life. You should be life experimentalist and enthusiastic about everything in this universe. When you are observant to life, you may realize that everything has a purpose in life. Nothing is more painful as ignorance of not being observant. When you are happy and successful you don’t value anything in life but when you have some failure or unwanted circumstances you start observing more and more about everything. There was a quote, “Everybody wants to go to heaven but nobody wants to die”. Exactly nobody wants failure in life, nobody wants pain in life, nobody wants emotional breakdowns in life and nobody wants trouble in life. Being observant teaches us more to understand the value of every moment of life. Even pain is beautiful, sadness is beautiful and loneliness is beautiful. Budhha quoted that Dukha (sadness) is part of life and it comes with you the moment you arrive in this world. So don’t expect always best from life, that would be unfair. Sometime worst things leads us to the best things we deserve. Some time it evolve us to survive in this world.
The best thing one can have
If you can calculate the risk in life then this would be your one of the most beautiful strength but beyond that one of the most beautiful thing one can have i.e “Idea” . There was a time when he had not even enough food but there was always been “Thoughts” and that is the best thing one can have in life. An idea can make you believe that you won’t die by hunger, an idea can make you believe that “While they can , Why you can’t !”. If you welcome life as an observant, you can generate thousand of ideas and you can make a difference. There is a beautiful quote in the movie “V for Vendetta” about the idea
“Beneath this mask there is more than flesh, Beneath this mask there is anidea, Mr. Creedy, and ideas are bulletproof”
Your mentality can change your life, your perspectives and your goals in life took. All those who calculate their life on the basis of possessions and luxuries are not aware of their consciousness. A king can be miserable and a beggar can be the happiest one. An idea can lead you the place you never thought of. It can make you different from the crowd. It can give you strength to survive in any condition. It can evolve you through failure to enlightenment.
Sometime you may think that life is unfair to you. Some time it may let you down through failure. There was a beautiful quote about life that
“I cried that I had no new shoes but I met a man on the street who had no shoe”
Life might have never given you what you desire but it always gives you what you need. It may look that life is just unfair to you but you were always been more blessed than others. Count on your failure and write them down. Analyze your problems and put every constructive effort to solutions. Remember that you may not have resources, you may not have comfort but your hard work don’t have any substitute. There will be your time and there is always light after the darkest night.
Believe in yourself, you are your greatest asset. You will never die by hunger. If you feel so you can write to me and I promise you that I may not know you but I won’t let you die. Prepare hard, generate your own thoughts, believe in your ideas and always remember my this beautiful quote
“Continue until you find what makes a difference – Lalit Hinrek”
I would explore my mind on various aspects of life and having a sense of acceptance that you might differ with my opinion. When I was in a college one day my friend told me “Yaar tu badi badi baatein nahi karta hai kya” I humbly replied that I have nothing to lose and I am a dreamer. Hope is a big thing, it gives you strength to say “…………..Continue until you find what makes a difference”. Life is a journey and happiness, sadness, love, anger, success, failure are just a part of it. Like I have said, Explore all the part of this journey and it must go on. Read these thoughts on different topics and add up your valuable comment if you want. As a learner it will be a privilege for me.
Why “The Lost Monk” –
Stephen Hawking quoted “The DNA in a human egg or sperm contains about three billion base pairs of nucleic acids. However, much of information coded in this sequence seems to be redundant or inactive. So total amount of useful information in our genes is probably something like a hundred million bits. By contrast, a paperback novel might contain two million bits of information. Therefore, a human is quivalent to about fifty Harry Potter books, and a major national library can contain about five million books or the ten trillion bits.”
Unknowingly, we are not aware of the capabilities of human mind which has evolved over the billions of years. Every human has tremendous capabilities but they are not aware of the information, intelligence and knowledge they are carrying with. Many people asked me the question that why did I have keep my blog’s name as “The Lost Monk” ?
I would like to elaborate it further, Buddha once said, “I pay respect to all the Buddha before me, all the Buddha around me and all the Buddha after me”. His name was Sidharth Gautama , Buddha was just the title given to him. Buddha means the enlighten one, the knowledgeable one. He told that there was Buddhas before him, also in his contemporary time and there will be Buddhas in the future as well. He also quoted, “the way is not in the sky, the way is in the heart”. He conveyed us that everyone is a Buddha, you, He, she and they all are Buddhas but we don’t have such realization that we all are contained with so much of information and intelligence in our body and mind so we are the lost one.
So I gave it a name “The Lost Monk”.
Monk doesn’t mean that you are a Sadhu (hermit) or something. Monk means you are above the emotions and you have control over your mind. Our thoughts and outer objects generate different kind of sensation in our body which led our actions accordingly. But we are the lost one because outer objects/emotions are handling our actions. Collection some information from book can add up to your knowledge but we all have that intelligence within us which no book can teach us. The moment we have that sense of self realization, our entire understanding changes, our action changes and our outcome also changes. It is a long journey and we are have lot of things to learn.
Friendship and growth
Your personality is the average outcome of your closest five friend whom you can count on your finger. If they are gymnastic guys, defiantly your personality will be full of knowledge of it and its impact. Same goes for aspirants, businessman and sports persons. I will give you a best example how your growth depends on your friendship. My friend Rohit and I used to take long walks during lunch hours and discuss lot of business ideas. We use to share how we would do in future in respect of our ideas. I had a idea of third party business module in adventure field which we discussed and tried to contact many start up in this field. We just had a try and in response to that we received calls with 20 to 25 % of commission if we generate business to them. This was nothing serious but a fun. We understand one thing that if you talk about growth and progress among the people who have same interest, you will grow in your life. We dropped this idea later but still continued our business talks and enjoyed it. One day we talked about the business of unique restaurant having only healthy food items and this led Rohit to start a small start up in Delhi. He opened his first restaurant in Delhi. He is doing great because it is a big achievement if a government employee think beyond of criticizing Modi or Cognress.
I am really proud of him and happy for him. I just wanted to elabrote that growth comes only if you talk about growth. Your friends and friendship plays a very important role here.
Now let me explain another situation here. A group of friends having good jobs and money. But they are just involved in parties, boozing and fagging. If you do not follow them in this entertainment they would call you a fool or psycho may be. They don’t talk growth, they don’t talk about knowledge, they don’t talk about philosophy and they don’t talk about learning. Do you think you will grow in life?
No! You will never. You are actually decaying in terms of knowledge, progress and learning. Earning money is not something which adds up to real personality but the attitude to acquire knowledge does. And if you have good friends around you, they will push you further even if they see a little space of improvement in life.
Another example of friendship is that group of friends with same ideology and they are just involved in criticizing individuals, government or the system. They have criticism to everything but contribution to nothing. There is a famous quote that “Beauty lies in the eyes of beholder”. If you see success, growth , positivity ,you will find it everywhere. If you count mistakes, if you see negativity you will invite negativity in life. Your approach decide your attitude. Progressive thoughts bring growth in life.
My girl Panda, having so much of potential in her sometime she is battling with her emotional issues which is leading her to fear of failure and anxiety. In response to that every day we are talking about growth, positivity and learning. She is becoming more confident and happier. She is ready to accept everything as it comes to her life. This is how we can build up positivity between us. She has tremendous capabilities and potential to achieve everything she has ever cherished. But when you have not a right approach to deal with it, you start losing your belief. I will tell her how many times I have failed in life but every single time I remember that glory is not in the falling but in standing back every time you fall. Your failure and success are just impermanent and play a little role in life but this journey of life must be beautiful.
We have to always remember it that “Journey is happiness, not the destination”. You can enjoy every aspect of life because it will bring more experience to your life. I have given a quote “The theory of universe” which gives us so much strength. Try to understand the value of these wordings
“वक़्त की बात है दोस्त कि मजबूर भी मज़बूत हुआ करते है शिद्दत से देख ऑसमा को ज़रा सबसे बड़े अंधेरों से सबसे बड़े उजाले हुआ करते है”
Friendship, love and relations play a major role in our growth. A true kind of friendship /love is what brings the best in you and always leads you to progress. Friendship/love doesn’t mean that you can die for someone or what! But it means showing a right path when you are lost, pushing you more when you have failed in life, making you belive that you can do it to achieve something more and to stop you when you are at fault. Our today’s conversation can lead us to start a startup, to learn new skills and to build a dream which we had never discussed before. So make your friendship/relationship worth it and walk this journey with some beautiful memories.
If you are true friend of someone, please do not talk about people, do not indulge yourself in meaningless entertainment because it will give you nothing, instead of it “Talk about philosophy, talk about life, talk about progress and talk about dreams” it will design your life. Sometime life may not give you what you dream but it will always give you what you need.
Fragility and the opportunity
I have not read many books, even I could not prepare for civil exams because I could have not finished my set of NCERT. But I have a little experience of life many of journeys in different places. On the basis of this experience I write things, poetry and quotes which inspired me. Everything happens in life brings you a kind of opportunity. Lets us talk about fragility. Your fragility (worst time) works on the principle of uncertainty, randomness and unpredictability. I know a young man who had a beautiful mind but was in financial crises so he could not pay just Rs.150 /- for his school’s practical fees. He thought it was his worst time of life and nobody helps him. But this fragility brings him an opportunity to build up more durability that he becomes antifragile to such crises in life.
I know another young man who had a beautiful mind but could not succeed in engineering entrance exam and also failed in B.Sc. He thought this is the worst time of his life and he could not even face himself. But this fragility pushes him with more opportunity to be antifragile to failure.
I know a friend who was in relationship with a girl but after a 3-4 month they got a break up. She tortured him so much that he breakdown, could not handle the situation. He called me and told that he his committing suicide. I was in shock, did not understand how to react. But I convinced him that I will talk to girl. I called her but she was not ready to listen to me. Finally she listen me and I convinced her but she wanted a certificate of HIV of my friend. I know you are laughing because it seems very funny but it is a true story. I assure her of that since we had no choice and then we produce his HIV report to her. It was a happy break up then. In the evening we went to wine shop, purchased a bottle of old monk. After three peg my friend told me that it is his worst time. He titled me lord “Krishna” the savior. Since then he was careful regarding all the fun way relationships.
What did we notice in these three instances that life is so random, uncertain, unprintable and fragile. Another explanation “you are blind until your eyes are not wide opened”. Your assumptions of people on the basis of fragility are never a true assessment of someone’s true nature.
Economic cries, war, love adventures, disorders, emotional breakdown are fragile but benefit from it leads us to antifragility. Every time we are stronger than we were before. So fragility is a true opportunity to enhance your capabilities.
Having difficult time how somebody can still manage to wake up very cheerful in the morning?
We are lost in to the past or into the future and every action of our body is just derived by it. As a student when we prepared for exam we always thought of our selection or results. We are away from the reality that success and failure is impermanent. If you fail it brings another challenge to start harder to achieve that goal. If you succeed, new goal entered in life. Meditation gives you the opportunity to understand yourself. You can understand the depth of meditation by this quote
“Without the focus and clarity provided by this practice (vipasana meditation), I could not have written Sapience or Homo Dues. At least for me, meditation never came into conflict with scientific research. Rather, it has been another valuable tool in the scientific toolkit, espacailly when trying to understand the human mind”
——-Yoval Noah Harari , writer of Sapience, Homo Dues and 21 Lessons for the 21st Century.
Meditation gives you the strength to understand your own mind. Have you ever thought of it how your brain generates these electrical signals to your mind in different situation? Our brain has really very complex system. No machine could have found the reason how our emotions works. Machine can read only these electrical signals but not the emotions. Meditation gives you a sense of realization of reality that our mind is a root cause of our suffering. Meditation also strengthens us to control over our mind. Once you start mastering it, you start observing reality as it is.
We all have accumulated so much of impurities over the years in our mind. Without the sense of realization it is stored systematically layer by layer in our mind. Like we wanted something desperately when we were in school but unfortunately we couldn’t get it. The sense of regret is stored in our mind though we moved on. Same for the other aspect of life. As a result of accumulation these impurities come out as anxiety, hatered, aversion, lust regret and desire and become a root cause of our sufferings. When we start observing the reality as it is, these impurities start eradicating from mind. When we have control over thoughts, we have control over mind and hence control over our actions. Read out these thoughts
“Coming back after seven months in Indian villages, I saw the craziness of the western world as well as its capacity for rational thoughts. If you just sit and observe, you will see how restless your mind is. If you try to calm it, it only makes it worse, but over time it does calm, and when it does, there’s room to hear more subtle things— That’s when your intuition starts to blossom and you start to see things more clearly and be in present more. Your mind just slows down, and you see a tremendous expanse in the moment. You see so much more than you could see before. It’s a discipline, you have to practice it”
—- Steve Jobs, on his India visit.
Meditation is tool which gives you a sense of clarity, focus and reality. You start being more, living more and accepting more. You start accepting yourself without changing your nature. You start accepting your failure, success, happiness and sorrows as the way they are. You start observing your surrounding with calmness and cheerfulness.
“That is why having trouble and struggle yet you can still manage to wake up very cheerful in the morning.”
Morality , Character and Reputation-
Morality is a subjective terms and it has a broad meaning. A man hankering morality is the most corrupted one. A man indulged in Rs.100/- Crore frauds are the same as a man who lied to his father about his drinking or smoking. First one is cheating to a public and second one to a father. So every person on the planet lied to someone for a reason but we had ignored it because of less weigh but on the other hand we have consider fraud as a immoral act .
Because the first one covered up by the law but what about to cheat someone with love, trust and belief? You can not define it because of the subjectivity. You have moral values if it is within the ambit of law. That is the true definition, may be !
Let us now talk about the reputation. Reputation is polished, impermanent and fragile. Reputation comes after immediate success, money or outer current actions which has strength to influence society. You might have seen many people around you that they have so much lean into social reputation so that they can earn acclaim from society but they do not have that much compassion in their heart. They may not have respect their parents, family members and friendship. They can show the boot licking attitude when they are in front you but they will never lose the opportunity to criticize you behind. Reputation can be built up within a day by organizing some social event, donation, contributing something to influence blind society. But on the other hand character is something which has been developed by over the years of ups & down, love & compassion, knowledge & sharing, care & friendship, brotherhood & family values and success & failure. Character is something when you have strength to appreciate people who had different opinion than you, when you do not talk about people behind their back and when you have true compassion in your heart.
Character is antifragile. Reputation can be destroyed within a second by person or society but character is something which is yours. It will always remain within you through the push & pull and hail or high water. Let us built a character rather than a reputation.
Karma is a bitch –
It is complicated to understand the existence of the universe. This corona virus outbreak has taught us that we are nothing but a cell that is very fragile. This has also proof that virus do not discriminate us. Virus is much more powerful than God. It is killing thousands of people irrespective of religion, cast and creed.
I was a hardcore believer when I was young but with the time my curiosity is towards reality. I am rational and non believer. I enjoy faith if it brings peace of mind. I had another belief of karma but it is also changing with the time. Einstine also quoted, “God do not play dice”.
I will show you some events below:
I was good in study in school. I helped to pass many of my friends in board exams. One of my friends later got selected in police. It was evening time when the result came out. One of my friend touches my feet and quoted, “Bhai ! You are a God for us” just because I helped them with my sheet and they passed the exams.
When we were preparing for engineering my younger brother use to write me kind of note. In one of them, he quoted, “Brother ! You are a God for me who guide me through the darkness”
My friends, who had no knowledge of competitive exams and I filled up their forms and they got their first job by attempting their first competitive exam of life later titled me as a ‘God’ believing that I had kind of contribution on this.
A girl quoted me, “I have not seen a God but you are not less than a God”.
My friend who was about to commit suicide because of his girlfriend titled me “God” because I helped him with peaceful break up and saved him.
What did you notice in these examples that God is a reflection of your Karma. When you have enough contribution and influence on someone’s life you are something meaningful to them.
But let’s talk about some contradiction here.
What about the karma of a terrorist?
Do you think Karma has all the control over it like what goes around comes around ? I think Karma can bring you result according to your capabilities. Karma cannot punish you for the wrong, law does. Like Hafiz Saeed has who had the mastermind of Mumbai attack is still alive with luxuries of life. Even, you might have seen all the corrupted people with all the luxuries of life. Does Karma punish them ?
Answer is ‘No’. They are not punished until they are caught by the enforcement agencies. They have looted millions of rupees and break down the back bone of the system. They are enjoying everything in life.
So karma is not a bitch. Our life is nothing but a mechanical cycle and it has nothing to do with Karma or God. Your good karma (as per your own definition) can brings you happiness, titles, success and fame but at the same time bad karma (as per your own definition) can bring you luxury , comfort, peace and happiness.
Your actions are fragile and impermanent, so mourning up on the past action will bring nothing but sadness in your life. There is nothing like “Karma is a bitch”. You will always receive all the things you deserve. If you have strong intention to get anything, you will get it by hook or crook, no matter what. It is up to you what you chose, either Karma or God. Just remember you do not lose your character while pursuing it because once it is lost, you lose everything.
Thank You for your valuable time.
The Lost Monk
Ref: Brief Answers to the big questions- Stephen Hawking
Steve Jobs- Walter Issacson
Antifragility – Naseem Nicholas Taleb
Sapience – Youval Noah Harari
21 lessons for the 21st Century – Youval Noah Harari
(PS: These are just thoughts, nothing like philosophy or something. I am a human being like you and I might have not followed lot of things I had discussed above. I talk positivity, motivation, progress, learning and dreams. I have not written it to influence people but to explore ideas, life and adventures. I am not a good reader and very weak in English as well. So ignore all the grammatical mistakes and enjoy the ideas. Do not judge me on the basis of these writings because life has broader meaning than this. Moreover it is like “it is better not to judge me if you are not grown like me”. I hope it is a worth reading for all those who has little interest in life adventures.)
2500 साल पहले मगध राज्य मे ऐक बालक जिसका नाम अंहिसक था वह तक्षशिला मे अपनी शिक्षा दिक्षा ग्रहण कर रहा था । वह अपने सभी मित्रों मे सबसे अव्वल था जिससे जल्द ही वह समस्त आचार्यों का प्रिय हो गया । कुछ छात्र उसकी तरक़्क़ी से इतने दुखी हुये की उन्होंने बालक के प्रति षड्यन्त्र रचा और गुरूजनों को गुमराह कर बालक के ख़िलाफ़ भड़का दिया । गुरूजनों ने उसे दक्षिणा मे ऐक हज़ार मानव अंगुलियों को ऐकत्र करने की दक्षिणी मॉगी जिसके लिये उसे ऐक हज़ार मानव की हत्या करनी थी । वह गुरूकुल से शिक्षा छोड़ कर चला गया और ऐक ऐक करके मानवों की हत्या करता गया । मानव संख्या याद रखने के लिये वह मानव की ऐक अंगुली काट देता था और गले मे माला पहनने लग गया । धीरे धीरे सम्पूर्ण मगध /श्रावस्ती मे उसका ख़ौफ़ फैल गया और कालान्तर मे वह अंगूलीमाल के नाम से कुख्यात हुआ ।
वह हत्याऐं करता गया और करते करते नौ सौ निन्यान्वे हत्याऐ कर गया । अब उसका आख़िरी मानव बचा था और ऐक दिन ऐक बुढ़िया और ऐक सन्यासी जंगल के रास्ते मे उसके सामने आ गये । यह सन्यासी गौतम बुद्ध थे तथा बुढ़िया उसकी अपनी माता थी लेकिन मोह मे अंधा व्यक्ति अंगुलीमाल अपनी मॉ को भी नही पहचान पाया । वह हँसते हुये कहता है “हाहाहा , मेरे रास्ते मे दो लोग ऐक साथ आ गये अब मैं इस बुढ़िया की जान लूँ या इस संन्यासी की “
गौतम बुद्ध मुस्कुराते रहे और बोले , “ इस बूढ़ी औरत की हत्या मत करना , तुम मेरी जान ले सकते हो “
उनके आत्मविश्वास और तेज़ को देखकर अंगुलीमाल अंचभित था और ग़ुस्से मे आकर बोला , “ ऐ संन्यासी , पूरा इलाक़ा मेरे नाम से थरथराता है और तुम्हारी इतनी हिम्मत “
वह ग़ुस्से से उनकी और लपका लेकिन गौतम बुद्ध बिल्कुल निश्चितं खड़े रहे । उन्होंने अपना हाथ आगे किया और बोले , आओ ! और मुस्कुराते रहे ।
बुद्ध के इतने आत्मविश्वास और करूणा देख वह ऐक दम पिघल गया और उसे अपने अस्तित्व का ऐहसास हो गया । बुद्ध ने उसे गले से लगा लिया और धम्म् की शिक्षा दी । वर्षों तक वह बुद्ध के साथ रहा फिर गौतम बुद्ध ने उसे धम्म् की शिक्षा का प्रसार करने के लिये भेज दिया जिससे वह भी दुखियों की सेवा कर सके और उन्हें भी धम्म् का मार्ग प्रशस्त कर सके । वर्षों बाद वह गॉव , शहर की ओर निकला लेकिन लोग क्रोध मे इतने अंधे थे कि वह अंगुलीमाल अपन नही सके और जब भी वह निकलता उस पर पत्थर फेंकते । अंगूलीमाल का सिर फूट जाता लेकिन वह मुस्कुराता रहता क्योंकि वह जानता था ये लोग सब दुखियन है बिल्कुल उसके जैसे है जैसे वह था , इसलिये वह उन्हें सह्रदय अपना लेता बिना किसी अपेक्षा के । लोगों ने उसे अब तक क्षमा नही किया था , गौतम बुद्ध जानते थे वह तैयार था इसलिये उन्होंने उसे वापस भेजा । फिर ऐक दिन किसी गर्भवती महिला की असहाय पीढ़ा को अंगूलीमाल ने अपने तेज़ से , ज्ञान से , करूणा से और धम्म् से ठीक कर दिया । यह बात पूरे शहर मे फैल गयी और लोगों ने अंगूलीमाल को अपनाना शुरू कर दिया ।
बाद मे अंगूलीमाल बेहद प्रसिद्ध बौद्ध हुये और उन्होंने सम्पूर्ण जीवन दुखियन की सेवा की और धम्म् का प्रसार किया ।
शिक्षा – प्रत्येक मनुष्य हजारो कमियाँ और ग़लतियाँ करता है लेकिन यह भी सत्य है कि प्रत्येक मनुष्य मे ऐक सुप्त अवस्था मे बोधी का भी निवास है । प्रत्येक मनुष्य ऐक बुद्ध है जिस दिन उसकी बोधी का उसे अहसास होता है । जब ऐक कुख्यात हत्यारा भी महान संत बन सकता है तो आप और हम तो अच्छे मानव बन ही सकते है । धम्म् के मार्ग पर चले और दुखियन की सेवा करे ।
Ps – All human beings are rolling into the misery just because of ignorance but their is a way out. Dhamma is the way to understand and experience your own being and real happiness. Everyone is a Buddha and everyone has Boddhi (knowledge) in dormant state. The moment you realise that Boddhi you start feeling compassion for all being and spreading positive vibration all around.
The moment you change your mentality , very next moment you start changing your state. Buddha said , ” All the Buddha before me , all the Buddha contemporary to me and all the Buddha to future , I pay my refuge upon them ”
Buddha is not a name , it is a state of one’s own realisation or ultimate truth . I can be a Buddha, you can be a Buddha and everyone can be a Buddha. Spread positivity and happiness and it will intensify your happiness ten times more back to you. Everyone can change their fate and come out of ignorance. Dhamma is a truth , Dhamma is a law of nature . Be a part of Dhamma and spread Dhamma to serve humanity.
There was a beautiful couple in the village . Husband was so much fascinated of his wife’s beauty. He used to praise her beautiful golden hair and her shining teeth. He used to compare her hair to cascade of gold and her teeth to the ocean of pearls. One day this man invited me for a dinner. I knew his affection for his wife and I was happy to see that.
Again when I entered to his house he started praising her wife’s beautiful hair,teeth and her smile. I was in a state that I could see his ignorance. I didn’t say even a word and keep smiling. Poor people with full of ignorance, cravings and aversion, do not know their own mind even. So I let him speak with full of his emotions.
He said , “I love her golden hair , it is like a cascade of gold on her head “
“I love her teeth which is just like a ocean of pearls”
I smile and said yes they are beautiful 😊
Then her wife started serving us dinner. We were sitting on the dinning table and our plates were fulfilled with aroma of delicious food. I started eating my food. All of sudden her husband found a long hair in the food. He got irritated and scold his wife
“Wife ,”what’s that , this dirty hair in my food …..!!! Yakkk !!! Move this plate away from here and bring another fresh one.”
The few moments back these were the same hair metaphorically said as a cascade of gold, shining on her head but all of sudden it became dirty and impure. I keep smiling with learning and understanding. Her wife brings him another new plate and then he start eating with me. Now he was not that much happy with the talks as he was before. He was not that much enthusiastic. I tried to normalise the situations and talk him about the Dhamma.
I told him that love is a emotion with compassion , non sectarian , universal sensations without manipulation and without cravings. I was telling him that you can not tell that you love your mother more than your father because if you do so it doesn’t remain non sectarian that means their is a amalgam of cravings either for your father or for mother. You can not say that you love more your best friend or your girlfriend because either you truely love your best friend or your girlfriend. Love is universal and you can not measure it in the form of less or more. It is same for everyone and once you start feeling that you will understand the real meaning of love. Rest is based on our cravings which keeps arising and vanishing, keeps arising and vanishing , deriving us to imbalanced behaviour with full of impurities , keep accumulating layer by layer without even knowing to us and one day which turn out as a aversion, illusion, delusion, empathy, agony, hatred , sympathy and all other thoughts.
In between his wife was bringing water for him and she fell down near the table and one of her front tooth broke down and sprinkled also in his plate which was still half of food.
He stand up and picked up her and he saw that her one tooth which was artificial has sprinkled due to imbalance in his plate , luckily she didn’t had any injuries.
He said , “ wife ! Put this dirty tooth away , take this plate away from here and I won’t have food now. My mood has got spoiled and I won’t eat anything now. “
Wife was embarrassed for unwanted things which had spoiled her husband’s mood. I was smiling. I wanted to spread Dhamma , the truth and law of nature. Because few minutes back these were the teeth which was said to be “the ocean of pearls “ but all of sudden they also became dirty and impure.
I wanted to teach that our mind work according to the objects and we are just a slave of our mind. Without understanding the theory of अनिच्चा , we can not be liberated from ignorance. We will be deriving by the things which is in our favour (cravings) or against (aversion) and our life will be driven just accordingly.
I taught them Dhamma, brings them out of ignorance and fulfilled them with compassion, joy and real happiness. I told them that beauty is beauty when it is integrated but when it is decayed and segregated from the truth it become impurity of mind. Husband and wife followed the path Dhamma and left all the object oriented life behind. They become the happiest couple on village and inspired others to be like them. They spreads Dhamma through out their life to make people realise the reality of their real happiness.
PS – अनिच्चा is a Pali word which means Impermanence. Theory of Impermanence is a special place in Buddhism and play a very important role. To understand the nature of our body and mind we should understand ourselves first. Day by day we are decaying, decaying and decaying towards end without even realising it. We can chose to accumulate impurities or to purify our mind with the time so that one can truly understand the real meaning of love and happiness. When you will understand that you are itself a universe containing mind and matter then you will understand the little thing about yourself. It is a last long process but your one step towards it is like a one drop in the jar and one drop is always better than an empty jar.
And knowing the process of अनिच्चा , slowly you will see that part of the bubble , you have become a wavelet too 🧘♂️.
नदी के किनारे एक पत्थर पर बैठकर तथा पॉव पानी मे डूबोऐ हुऐ , उसकी कल-कल बहती जलधारा को निहारते हुये बालक शान्त भाव मे मानो आत्म-मंथन मे डूबा हुआ प्रकृति के सौन्दर्यमयी स्वरूप को महसूस करने का प्रयास कर रहा हो । नदी की धारा एक विशाल पत्थर से टकराकर ऐक तालाब का निर्माण करती है जहां जल का प्रवाह बिलकुल शान्त हो जाता है । बालक कुछ कंकड़ लिये लगातार शॉन्त जल मे फेंकता है तथा उनसे उठने वाली तंरगो की तीव्रता को अपने पॉव तक महसूस करके ऐक अलग अनुभूति प्राप्त करता है । प्रत्येक कंकड़ से प्रतिकर्षित होने वाली ये तंरगे अपने केन्द्र से परतो मे व्यक्ति तक पहुँचती है । प्रकृति मानो स्वयं एक संदेश प्रसारित करने का प्रयत्न कर रही हो कि जीवन भी ऐक केन्द्र से शुरू होकर आगे बढ़ता हो तथा इन्ही तंरगो की भॉती बाल्यावस्था की चंचलता , युवावस्था की ऊर्जा ऐवम् अन्तिम क्षणो मे अनुभवों से परिपूर्ण किन्तु बिना ऊर्जा के, बिना तीव्रता के धीरे धीरे स्वतः ही विलुप्त हो जाता है । इस यात्रा मे अनुभवों का आधार , अर्जित किया विस्तृत दायरा अन्तिम तंरग की उपलब्धियों की व्याख्या करता हो । व्यक्ति समझता है अनुभव सर्वश्रेष्ठ अध्यापक है किन्तु अंतर्मन के इस द्वंद्व को देखकर दुखी होता है क्योंकि उसे महसूस होता है की ये ऊर्जामयी तरंगे तो अल्पकालिक है । उसके मस्तिष्क मे मानो युद्ध चल पड़ा हो वह अपनी तंरगो को कैसे व्यवस्थित करे यह प्रश्न कदाचित उचित था । कुछ देर बाद यह बालक घर की ओर प्रस्थान करता है , घर पंहुचते ही पुछता है कि मॉ सर्वाधिक प्रेम किससे करती है । मॉ हँसकर कहती है कि “अरे पगले तू ही तो मेरा सबकुछ है , मेने अपने जीवन मूल्यो को तुम्हें प्रदान करके अगली पीढ़ी के लिये संरक्षित किया है , मुझे इससे अधिक जीवन से और क्या चाहिए “। बालक बहुत प्रभावित ऐवम प्रसन्न होता है । भावुक होकर विचारो मे डूब जाता है कि धन्य है वो मॉ जिनके संस्कारों से साधारण मनुष्य ईश्वर हो गये । वह खुश था कि उसकी मॉ सदैव उसे सर्वाधिक प्रेम करने का एहसास दिलाती रहती थी ।
रात का खाना खाने के बाद रोज की तरह वह छत पर सोने चला गया । आज आकाश बिलकुल नीला ऐवम स्वछन्द था तथा हजारों टिमटिमाते तारे साफ देखे जा सकते थे । वह लेट गया ऐवम सितारों को निहारने लगा । ये टिमटिमाते सितारे मानो उसे बैचेन करने लगे , उसे उसके अस्तित्व के वर्चस्व का पाठ पड़ाने लगे हो । सितारों की इस भीड़ मे मानो वह कहीं खो सा गया हो , वह जहॉ भी देखता उसे स्वरूप नजर आ रहा था । वह महसूस करने लगा की वह विलुप्त हो रहा है तथा अन्य सितारे प्रकाशमय हो रहे हो । वह बैचेन होने लगा तथा ऐसा महसूस करने लगा की इस भीड़ मे तो उसका अस्तित्व ही नही । यह बेहद कठिन समय था । वह उठता है तथा टहलने लगता है । कुछ देर बाद उसे नींद आ जाती है । आज का युद्ध मानो समाप्त हो चुका हो । अगले दिन सूर्य की प्रथम किरण के साथ वह जागता है । वह बेहद प्रसन्न है क्योंकि सारा अंधकार समाप्त हो चुका है और जीवन मानो प्रकाशमय हो चुका है । उसे मानो इस अन्तर्द्वन्द से पाठ मिला हो कि जीवन मे कभी ज्यादा घमण्ड होने लगे तो स्वच्छ आकाश के नीचे लेटकर उस भीड़ मे अपने अस्तित्व को ढूँढना , घमण्ड स्वत: दूर हो जायेगा । तंरगो ने मानो जीवन की निश्चित यात्रा का पाठ सिखाया हो जिसके आधार पर वह अपनी ऊर्जा को व्यवस्थित कर सकता है । वह बेहद प्रसन्न था तथा प्रकृति के रहस्यमय सौन्दर्य को और विस्तृत समझना चाहता था । उसकी सिखने की ललक मानो हजारो गुना बड़ गयी हो । वह शिक्षित होकर आगे बढ़ना चाहता था तथा स्कूल जाकर अब ज्ञान अर्जित करना चाहता था । वह खिलखिलाकर मॉ से कहता है वह स्कूल जाना चाहता है । मॉ खुश थी तथा स्वीकृति देने के बाद बालक बेहद प्रसन्न था । मैं भी उस बालक को देखकर बेहद प्रसन्न हुआ ।
ठण्डी सर्द रातें रूह को कंपकपा देती है लेकिन स्वप्न ज्योति आज भी उसे खुले आकाश को निहारने हेतु आकर्षित करती है । मॉ ने चुल्हा फूकॉ , गर्म रोटियॉ सेक कर उसे आवाज लगायी किन्तु वह रोज की भॉति आज भी आकाश मे रहस्यो को निहारते हुये कहीं खो सा गया था । आखिर यह ब्रह्मांड है क्या ? उसकी उत्पत्ति से लेकर अन्तिम अवस्था तक के विचारो की उथल पुथल ने उसे मानो गहन चिन्तन मे डाल दिया हो जैसे । विचारो की उम्र नही होती , ये तो शून्य से उत्पन्न होकर , शून्य मे विलीन होते है । वह महसूस करता कि कितनी विचित्र बात है , रहस्यो का ये भण्डार मानो उसकी जिज्ञासा को सहस्र गति प्रदान करता हो । मॉ ने फिर आवाज लगायी , वह वापस जाता है खाना तैयार है और मॉ से पुछता है कि वह वहॉ तक यात्रा करना चाहता है जहॉ उसे ब्रह्मांड की अन्तिम अवस्था की प्राप्ति हो । मॉ मुस्कराते हुये कहती है जहॉ शिव शम्भू रहते हैं वही से सब शुरू होता है और वहीं समाप्त । मॉ उसकी उत्सुकता देखकर मुस्कराती है । वह गर्म गर्म रोटियॉ , सब्जी खाता है तथा रहस्यो का वार्तालाप जारी रहता है । गॉव मे बिजली की समस्या है , खाकर वह चिमनी वाला लैम्प जला देता है और कमरे मे जाकर टेबल पर रख देता है । वह अब कला की कॉपी निकाल कर पेंसिल से कुछ उकेरने की कोशिश करता है । कुछ देर बाद उसे नींद आने लगती है तो आधा अधुरा चित्र छोड़कर लैम्प बुझा देता है और लेट जाता है । मस्तिष्क मे अभी रहस्यो का युद्ध छुड़ा हुआ है , ये कल्पनाऐं उसे ऐक अलग आन्नद प्रदान करती थी । एक हिंदू परिवार मे होने के कारण वह धार्मिक गतिविधियों से भी अक्सर रूबरू हो जाया करता था । वह आश्चर्यचकित रहता था कि कैसे आस्थाओं का जन्म होता है । वह देवी देवताओं के अस्तित्व से भी अत्यंत प्रभावित था तथा उनके रहस्य उसे सदैव उत्साहित रखते थे ।
उसको नींद आ जाती है , मानो ऐक युद्ध की समाप्ति का विगुल बजा दिया गया हो किन्तु ऐक अलग काल्पनिक संसार मे वह अपनी रहस्यमयी खोजे जारी रखता है ।
वह घर से निकल पड़ा है , गॉव से काफी दूर जाकर वापस देखता है , धुमिल होती तस्वीर अभी दिखाई दे रही है । फिर मुड़कर सफर की गति को बरकरार रखता है । अब यहॉ से दुसरा गॉव शुरू होता है , चलते चलते कुछ लोग मिलते है किन्तु वह बिना किसी वार्तालाप के आगे बड़ता जाता है । किसकी तलाश और कौन सी वो मंजिल , अभी भी अस्पष्ट है । दिन समाप्त होता है वह चॉदनी रात मे भी यात्रा बरकरार रखता है । इसी तरह कुछ और गॉव पार करता रहता है तथा 2-4 दिन बीत जाते है । चेहरे पर प्रखर तेजस्वी ओज , प्रचण्ड जोश उसकी ऊर्जा को सदैव ज्वलित करता है तथा आगे बढ़ने की प्रेरणा देती रहती है ।
अब ऐक धार्मिक स्थल आता है जहॉ कुछेक श्रद्धालु दिखाई पड़ते है । ऐक साधू उसे बताते है यह रास्ता सीधेे कैलाश जाता है जहॉ स्वयं शिव शम्भू विराजमान है किन्तु इस राह पर कोई गया नही कभी । इतने दिनो के कठिन यात्रा उसे डगमगा नही पायी , अब तो मानो उसे शिव शम्भू की तलाश हो जैसे । उसकी राहे कितनी अलग है , वह किसी की परवाह किये वगैर आगे की ओर चल पड़ता है । इतने दिनो से कन्दमूल, फल फूलों जैसे प्राकृतिक स्रोतों से यापन करता रहा । कठिन मार्गों, नल नालो , नदि , जंगलों को पार करता रहा और अब बर्फ की चोटियों से रूबरू होता है । ये राह कितनी कठिन है किन्तु जिज्ञासा की हठ हार मानने से इनकार करती है । अब ये डगर और कठिन होने वाली थी वह इस बात से अनभिज्ञ था । ये बर्फ ढकी चोटियॉ और उनसे बहने वाली सर्द हवाऐं मानो तीखी तलवार सरिखे वार करती है । उसका जुनून आगे बढ़ने का हौसला देता है , रफ्तार थमती नही और वह बड़ता चला गया । वह ऐक चोटी पर पहुँच गया किन्तु उसे अब और ऊंची चोटियॉ दिखाई दे रही है , वह फिर आगे बड़ता है शिव शम्भू की तलाश मे ।
ऐक स्थान उसे महसूस होता है कि अब उसका शरीर साथ नही दे रहा , रुककर और ऊँची चोटियों को देखता है । उसकी ऑखो के सामने अब अंधेरा छा रहा है , वह घुटनो के बल बैठ जाता है । उसका शरीर ठण्डा पड़ने लगा , सॉसे थम सी रही थी । उसे प्रतीत होने लगा कि ये अन्तिम क्षण है , निराशा ने जकड़ सा लिया हो जैसे । उसे दुख है कि बिना दर्शन के छोड़कर जाना पड़ेगा । अचानक अंधेरा छा जाता है , वह गिर पड़ता है । शरीर गिरा पड़ा है , वह अंधकार मे विलीन हो गया । यही सत्य है , यह अंधकार है और इसके आगे कुछ नही है , यही शून्य है । वह कभी नही उठेगा ।
कुछ क्षण पश्चात ऐक तीव्र ज्योति प्रकट होती है , उसकी ऑखे खुलती है तो वह स्वयं को किसी की बॉहो मे पाता है । ये क्या ! साक्षात शिव शम्भू उसे उठाये हुये है । उनके तेज से मानो संसार प्रकाशित हो रहा हो जैसे । उनकी रहस्यमयी मुस्कान मानो सहस्र रहस्यों को जन्म दे रही हो जैसै । भोले बाबा मुस्कराये , वह कुछ नही बोल पाया । बाबा ने सिर पर हाथ फेरा , उसे ऐक झटका लगा उसने ऑखे खोल कर देखा मॉ सिर पर हाथ फेर रही थी । दूध का गिलास मेज पर रखा था , सुबह हो चुकी थी । वह मॉ से लिपट जाता है किन्तु कुछ कहता नही । मॉ हाथ फरती है और मुस्कराती है । ये रहस्यो के खजाने मे ऐक और हीरा इकट्ठा हो गया । मॉ तथा बालक दोनो बेहद प्रसन्न थे । मैं भी उन्हे देखकर बेहद प्रसन्न था ।